A feeling gradually arises
from within, that all along
I have just
been mastering the process
of putting myself
into frustrations, getting frustrated .
Don't know where
to dissipate these frustrations,
not quite finding the reservoir
which would couple with my system
the way I wanted, and perhaps still
want .
Having forgotten the manual
overrides, with a notion wiz
said, "controls, if any, should come
from within, must arise organically,
and not
from the out .
But now that I have come to thee-
se feelings
can the in be really distinguished
from out?
Where did my environment end?
and When did I began?
Cant Kant come now and tell me somehow
this is forced dynamics,
that is plain kinematics?
The framework may as well bless
with freedom of infinite degrees, and nothing less,
but how does one do averages,
for if it is so not self-averaging a process?
Are there real solutions in these settings,
and do they converge
in reality?
If only some balance is possible here,
circular, if not in detail?
Is it essential in absolute, that you pull
manual overrides, once a while, at will?
Can the structure really be organic
whilst bestowed upon with quantum fluctuations...
for being coupled with a vacuum that is quantum...
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Murder of English? physics?? poetry?? Oh filthy, my hands!
